As I look ahead at this week, I’m utterly overwhelmed. Sitting here on Monday, having just finished my lunch, I find that I’m simply frustrated over the lack of my ability to stay on top of the things that must happen this day (let alone the long list of items to cover the rest of the week). You see, we’re leaving for vacation Saturday morning. I have about 2 weeks of work to cover in 1 – we’re moving in less than a month, and the packing is not happening fast enough – the house needs cleaned (partly because I like to return from vacation to a clean home) – and, I have to pack for vacation and get any last minute needed items! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH! OK – that feels better.
Actually, I’m seeing the problem already. I’m trying to accomplish MY agenda. Sounds reasonable right? Well, for many people it is, but for me, it’s not acceptable. I’ve committed to living each day for God. I’m here to fulfill His purpose – not mine. I’m relying on my abilities, which are very weak, to accomplish a list of items, and I haven’t even entrusted them to the Lord yet. Then, when I think of these “worries” that I’m dealing with today, I see how selfish I’m being. I’m worried about getting everything done before leaving for vacation, and yet there are so many people that won’t even get a vacation this year. I think of my friends Liz* and Dave* who have 6 children and Dave* lost his job over 4 months ago. I think of my friend Catherine* who is suffering with a broken heart over a failed marriage. I think of sweet Kate McCrae sitting in an Arizona hospital dealing with a brain tumor:
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mcraekate. WOW – OK – I’m humbled once again. Thank you God! Even if my “worries” are very real, my perspective is just a bit dim right now. With the strength that only comes from God, I choose to redirect my plans to accommodate His purpose, knowing that as long as He remains in first place, everything that needs to happen will happen prior to Saturday!
Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”
*name changed to protect identity
Leah, it's so nice to meet you! I am enjoying reading your blog and can relate to this post. It's so easy for me to become overwhelmed when I am not allowing God to lead me.
I also find myself running around in a million different directions. It kind of reminds me of when I am getting ready to take our dog outside. As soon as he knows what's ahead, he gets overly excited, running around the room and jumping. When he does this, it takes forever for me to attach his leash so I can take him out. I know can be just like that. I get so busy running around in so many different directions trying to accomplish everything. If I'd only settle down and let God lead me, I would accomplish my goals faster.
I am praying for God to give you peace and that your move is a smooth one.
Jane
Leah, thanks so much for stopping by and saying hello! I just saw your twitter update about being a blonkie! I love it!!! That is so cute! Looking forward to following along with you on your blog.