Well blog friends…what can I say? It’s been a LONG time since my last blog post. I truly don’t even know where to begin. So, let’s start where I last left off…Darlene “Dolly” Grace!
I shared in my last post that things were rolling along in trying to get the Liberian infant I met in June to the United States for life-saving surgery. While things weren’t finished, we knew God didn’t allow things to progress as they had without having a plan for completion. Guess what? Yesterday morning, baby “Dolly” arrived in Nashville, TN! She and her parents and a translator traveling with them are HERE!!!! God has been so good to this little girl, and it’s only just begun. And, I’m so grateful that He’s allowed me to “travel this journey” with them, in part. And to think…I questioned how this could even happen to begin with. Never question the Sovereign Lord!
That said, I am struggling to heed my own advice. Never question the Sovereign Lord…hmmm…what a novel idea. These days I’m finding that’s very easy to do on behalf of others, but when it comes to me – it’s simply a foreign concept. You see – it all boils down to the fact that what I thought were God’s plans for me seem to be unraveling and simply disintegrating. I simply don’t understand it! I have gone from one disappointment to another over the past month and a half, and it seems to be mounting with intensity. While I don’t understand what’s happening…while I’m an emotional wreck these days…while I’m struggling to discern God’s plan for me…I STILL KNOW HE’S GOD! I still believe He loves me completely. I still know that His plans for me are the only ones I truly want. I still know that He will NEVER leave or forsake me. I still trust Him with all that I am. While I know these things to be true, I still hurt…I’m still void of words at times (a lot these days, actually)…I still need forgiveness…I still need to feel loved…I still your prayers!
I am going to pray for you right now.
Oh Sweet Leah, I am praying for you. I too have gone through this past year trying to figure out why the plans I though God had for us…well, they weren't. Things happening that are so hard to deal with, the ups and downs, the stress, unanswered prayer (at least from OUR perspective)…on and on.
Hang on to Jesus. Keep your faith strong. Not easy on some days, but He will come through for you at the right moment.
We are in a transition ourselves and not sure where it will take us, but we are trusting God to lead us.
Love you..Missed you. ((hugs))