I think this has to be the longest period of “non-blogging” I’ve done since Chris’ death 11 months ago today. I’m sure some have thought I’ve fallen off the edge of the earth, or perhaps I’ve been going through a period of intense grief again, or maybe I’ve just been busy with adoption fundraising. Well, allow me to first set the record straight…
- I haven’t fall off the edge of the earth. 🙂
- I haven’t fallen into a period of intense grief again. Praise God!
- I HAVE been busy with adoption fundraising.
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- I’ve been experiencing heavy doses of God’s healing hand upon my broken heart! Yes, friends, I see light at the end of this dark tunnel!
In sharing with a friend recently, I acknowledged that I still have crying spells, but they are much shorter with longer times in between, and I’m honestly filled with joy over the restoration work that God is doing in my life. I’ve been overwhelmed with His faithfulness in REACHING for me…RESCUING me…and RESTORING me!
There is so much to share…but not yet. I’m overwhelmed at how merciful, faithful, gracious, and loving God has been towards me. He’s always these things, because they are attributes that define Him, but sometimes He allows me to see glimpses of His attributes in such life-defining ways. Now is one of those times.
As we march towards Resurrection Sunday, I not only know that His tomb is empty, but I also know that my grief “tomb” is empty. I’m no longer wrapped in sackcloth…I no longer carry the “stench” of death with me each day…I no longer lie in a position of defeat…I have been “resurrected”, in a sense from the guilt & shame associated with losing a spouse to suicide. I have been set free!!!!
“I not only know that His tomb is empty, but I also know that my grief “tomb” is empty. ” LOVE! Happy (early) Easter to you, Leah!
Thank you Eileen! Happy early Easter to you too sweet friend!
Praising God and the healing power of Christ in and through your life. You touch the hearts of many and I know you will continue to do so as God uses you as a conduit of his kingdom.
Dawn – thank you for your sweet comment. I simply want to submit to whatever His plans are for me. He’s so faithful!!
And he whom the Lord has set Free, Is Free Indeed!!! Praising God with you!
Amen sister! Thank you for helping me journey through this first year of grief!
Thanks for writing this, I am at 5 months so you give me hope that I too will be rescued from grief by our wonderful Lord and savior!! Happy Easter and God Bless you!!
Sue, you are such a blessing to me! I see God working so clearly in your life through your grief of 5 months. Just wait sweet sister…He has so much more ahead for you. God bless you!!!
So glad to read that you are healing!
Thank you Christa! I never thought I would feel this way again, but He who promised is faithful!
This post made my heart soar! I love you my friend, and I’m so happy for your bubbling-over joy! 🙂
Thank you Lee! I love you bunches!
<3 :~)