Dear Holly,

My sweet daughter that I have yet to meet…I love you already with a love that could only come from our Creator – God Himself. I can’t wait to tell you all about Him!

I think of you all the time. I pray for you daily. I’m not even sure what you look like or your age, because I know that could change depending on when God allows you to come home to us. But, I know you. In my heart, I feel I already know you.

I don’t know your story just yet sweet girl. I don’t know why you were orphaned, but I do know that this God I can’t wait to tell you about has never left your side. Even though you can’t see Him, He’s there with you all the time. He’s also here with me…helping me to be patient as I wait for you in His perfect timing.

I admit that I don’t understand why adoption has to be so difficult sometimes. I don’t understand why it costs so much money. I don’t understand why there are some people with abundant resources that could write one check to cover your expenses, but they hold so tightly to that which was never theirs to begin with. And yet…God is bigger than all of my questions…bigger than all of my frustrations…bigger than any dollar amount!

Although my days of widowhood are coming to an end (only by God’s grace and mercy), He knows that I understand your plight better than most, because I have been an “orphan” of a different type. That’s why I think he called me to adopt you while I was still a widow…knowing that He gets all the glory for it! He matched us up – you and me, my daughter. He gave your birth mother the blessing of bringing you into this world, and yet He knew I would also be called your mother. I cry as I write those words to you. To think, He loves us so much that He’s already handpicked us for each other.

And now…He’s handpicked a daddy for you too. God knew my willingness to adopt as a single mom. I never asked Him for more, but He’s blessed me…and YOU, my girl…with someone that is ready to call you his own as well. I can’t wait until you find out for yourself how great this God is that I speak of…He’s more wonderful than any word I type can convey.

So, while you wait…yes the waiting is hard for both of us…I pray that you know you are loved! I pray that you know we’re coming for you sweetheart! I pray that the people caring for you now are taking such good care of you that deep loneliness doesn’t take root in your life. I pray that you stay healthy. And…I pray that you start to feel God’s love surrounding you…even if it’s something you have yet to understand.

You, my daughter, are a blessing that I can’t wait to wrap my arms around! I love you sweet Holly (my little Holly-lujah!)!